Nothing to Be Fixed

“When we illuminate the road back to our ancestors, they have a way of reaching out, of manifesting themselves…sometimes even physically.” ~ Raquel Cepeda

“Don’t let a day go by without asking who you are…each time you let a new ingredient to enter your awareness.” ~ Deepak Chopra

“Pain is not the same as suffering. Left to itself, the body discharges pain spontaneously, letting go of it the moment that the underlying cause is healed. Suffering is pain that we hold on to. It comes from the mind’s mysterious instinct to believe that pain is good, or that it cannot be escaped, or that the person deserves it.” ~ Deepak Chopra

I can see that not much will be written this morning. Just found myself scrolling down the newsfeed on Facebook. It kinda made me dizzy. The only lingering positivity is all the cat videos my cousin posts. Cats are so weird. This morning it is both clouds and stars. One brief moment of a wavering wail from a coyote. Other than that it has been quiet. I don’t mind the coyote song at all. Their calls always make me smile. Sigh. The next three days may well turn out to be intense. I see the psychologist tomorrow, my therapist on Wednesday, and the massage therapist on Thursday. Oughtta be all fixed up after that, right? Better, yes. This stuff is all maintenance. There is nothing to be fixed. My brain and mind are different. That’s all. Depression and trauma can be insidious. But sometimes not. Thinking of all of what is entailed in these difficult feelings can make me want to catch my breath – which is what is happening now. Luckily I can calm this by trimming my beard – of all things. The anxiety is running high this morning. All I can really do is to give it a little loving pat, and hope that it lays low for the workday. That and a little self-care grooming oughtta be enough for today.

All is well. Goof gloriously.

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