Of Discordant PTSD Wagnerian Intensity

“What should I take? Something that will not be missed. In the wood at midnight, a magic flower.” ~ Margaret Atwood

“How can I be substantial if I do not cast a shadow? I must have a dark side also If I am to be whole.” ~ C. G. Jung

“Everything you need to know you have learned through your journey.” ~ Paulo Coelho

“Still write it down, it might be read
nothing’s better left unsaid
only sometimes, still no doubt
it’s hard to see, it all works out” ~ Procol Harum

Down to 40º – that’s the big news for me. The coffee is good but I am in no mood nor hurry to wake up to any effective degree. I finagled life conditions so that I can put off the laundry until Sunday. Casual dinner with a friend this evening, so the day may be left to flow easy. Lap cat. Purring no less. She purrs a lot more in her senior years – one can no longer say “old age”. What, is that considered to be negative thinking? Don’t get me started. By my own decree, I am supposta be stroking my rational mind today, kindling it to light me up after a dark spell on Tuesday. Well, maybe not so dark. What I brushed up against was way dark. I just got scuffed a little. The degree of that scuffing doesn’t always strike any kind of ratio with the degree of the effect it causes within my PTSD world. Now that was some kind of awkward sentence! But it said what it was intended to say. It doesn’t have to make any kind of sense at all. I feel better this morning, but yesterday was a low-grade nightmare of discordant PTSD Wagnerian intensity. Luckily I had therapy in the afternoon. Just as a reminder before I publish this post – I am not whining when I describe these mental issues. I advocate for mental health and illness issues. Sometimes it helps to understand when you hear it from a firsthand point of view. That’s all, folks.

All is well. Goof gloriously.

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