“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.” ~ Rainer Maria Wilke
These days I don’t even want to leave the house, and this morning is the return to engagement with the whole consensual reality of the 9-5 workaday world. Monday, Monday, can’t trust that day. Just another Manic Monday. Hmmmm, Manic Monday is what they call discount day at the dispensary. I need to stop by after work, so my timing is impeccable. Now, I don’t reckon I know why a loose theme of patience came to me this morning, but I see now that I have been feeling it coming for a while. Equanimity is an ongoing practice for me. It is, or needs to be, closely aligned with patience. There are two overt factors in my focus on patience. One is the increase in the dosage of Prozac. It takes time for the desired effect to be reached and stabilized, yet I can already feel the difference. The other thing is the shoulder brace I recently purchased. One of it’s functions is to help correct bad posture. It’s a gradual process. I can already feel the effects emerging. It will take time. Ack. It is just all so overwhelming at times. Today is one of those times. Likely I will enter Flow Consciousness before the day is over. I’d like that. That is where magic flows, pretty darned freely too, if I do say so myself. I look forward to it. In the immortal words of Captain James Tiberius Kirk, “It sounds like fun”.
All is well. Goof gloriously.