“So much is happening now; you must be patient like someone who is sick, and confident like someone who is recovering; for perhaps you are both. And more: you are also the doctor, who has to watch over himself. But in every sickness there are many days when the doctor can do nothing but wait. And that is what you, insofar as you are your own doctor, must now do, more than
anything else.” ~ Rainer Maria Rilke
“Every age, and especially our own, stands in need of a Diogenes; but the difficulty is in finding men who have the courage to be one, and men who have the patience to endure one.” ~ Jean-Baptiste le Rond d’Alembert
“Out of clutter, find simplicity.” ~ Albert Einstein
Slow start, and it’s okay. Deep cold again, the morning moves through darkness, under a sky that seems to hold the stars only as an afterthought. The main feature of my habitual visits outside, where I really should not go, but I do, and why not? Wait a minute, that was a really bad sentence. My bad. That’s what I say: own it. What I was going to say is that the only memorable feature of this morning was when a car moved along the road headed up onto the mesa. There are almost never cars going up or down that road at this time of day. It was the sound that brought me alert out of a nice little reverie. The sound of crushing rocks under car tires. My dad usta sometimes say “What, do you have rocks in your head?”. Well, dad, I do now. I find myself in a state of both giddiness and mental exhaustion. It was my perusing the HealthCare.gov yesterday morning that did it to me. About four hours of pointed focus and my brain got tired, and not only that, I also got the job done. I am pleasantly surprised. I musta been listening to them Republican, conservative, whatever, fellas and I’m like all dude it ain’t that hard, and no, you friggin dishonest little petty tyrants, it ain’t gonna ruin my life, nor that of the nation. What, do you have rocks in your head? Let’s not go there, k? The most interesting thing about the whole mental journey was a guy, Greg Mackenzie. Early on in my healthcare insurance search I first tried the company that provides my automobile insurance, on the slim chance that maybe I could get a bundled rate. No go on that. When I got to the ACA page on their website, up comes a prompt that told me that a fella by that name would be contacting me shortly. Yeh, right. I didn’t need no stinkin’ guy to help me out. I blew it off and went to the HealthCare.gov website, to dive in and git ‘er done. It turned out to be much easier than I expected. When the available plans came up on the monitor, screen, whatever, I began to carefully and methodically read all the pertinent details. Luckily I have an innate ability to kinda sorta picture numbers and stuff in my head (along with the rocks). I can take in data then lay it out in virtual, conceptual graphs, that help me to weigh what it is I am looking at. I found one plan that weighed just about right – not too big, not too small, just right. Now, yer probly thinkin’ I fancy myself to be friggin Goldilocks or something. Nope. I ain’t too fond of bears. So there! By that time, having found a potential plan, my head and neck were achin’ like the bejeezes, so I opted to lay it all aside and think about it later. That’s when Greg called. He called twice, and left messages both times. So I decided to call him and thank him for his consideration and perseverance. We turned out talking for maybe 20-30 minutes, during which he answered a few questions that were biting at my ankles. Turns out he ended up recommending the very plan I’d nearly settled on. He commended me on my excellent research, like it was some sorta freakish thing for somebody to figure it out on their own. Whatever. Reaching the end of the conversation I told him “Thanks dude yer awesome!”. He laughed. But he was, and he said to call him anytime if I have any more questions. Likely I will. Anyway, job done, though there’s the matter of psychotherapy to attend to. It sounds like it will be covered, but he couldn’t say for sure, from the data he held before him. Yeh, I went ahead and enrolled right after we ended the call. My psych meds were the #1 priority, and I’ll pay only five bucks a pop for those. So, moving forward here, it’s time to prep for work. Alls I kin say at this point is thanks, Greg, yer awesome dude.
Peace out, y’all. Goof gloriously.